I have tried explaining to my bf that he's not going the right way about it, tried giving him information on it, but he gets annoyed with me for doing accuses sites that help the supporters of someone with an ED, of being pro-ana/mia sites...

My doctor doesn't know yet, neither does my counsellor, and no, I don't have a therapist, despite me telling the doctor that I am suicidal and have been for 3 years...

I don't feel able to talk to anyone because I know what they're going to say, they're not going to help me with it just say "well you're not going the right way about it, the right way would be to eat a normal, healthily balanced diet, not to stop eating" yes, I know that already! I don't need telling again! I need to know how to stop feeling inadequate, stop comparing myself to others, stop competing with my "friend"

I don't know what to do...