I've felt that way too, and have often said I can't wait for the day when my past is where is belongs, "in the past" and how I hate that I still have a need to talk to T about thsi stuff. I've sometimes wondered if T isn't silently raising her eyes and sighing with the boredom of it all, but I think thats more my experience of childhood then how T really is. I mean if a person has another self-love then they would never find another unworthy of love and attention, and I've also wondered if things were as bad as what I've talked about and T said, that doesnt matter, its how your inner world feels about things that have happened that we deal with here too, not just the details, and we all have our own personal reactions to situations.