I must thank your answer nonetheless, Yaowen. I've dealt with depression for a long time when i had ocd. I needed to lie on bed for three months straight every summer, so I also send my best wishes to you and thank your kind reply. Mania is not the problem, psychosis is, and I'm still trying to find the best possible strategy, one that may not involve meds only. You're right, I feel my pdoc could do more, but I've had far worse. I'm glad he at least worries about giving me the least burdening meds. I smashed a glass of soda against the wall in a bar because I felt threatened... I was, most likely, delusional, but people talk, judge and point their finger. Thanks god I don't live in a tiny village. I'd like to control it, maybe it can't be done or I don't have enough strength in me yet. Need to work on it, obviously...


Take care .