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Sooooo depressed tonight. I don’t remember how to hide triggers anymore but if I did, I would probably explode online. I see my pdoc tomorrow and my t Tues. I’ve been seeiNg her twice a week since I’ve been out of the hospital but I return to work Wed so I’ll have to go back to once per week. Not sure how that’s going to work. After sitting here for the last 3 hours stewing, part of me feels like I should be back in the hospital but I can’t afford to lose my job and need to make money.
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Every finger in the room is pointing at me
I want to spit in their faces then I get afraid of what that could bring
I got a bowling ball in my stomach I got a desert in my mouth
Figures that my courage would choose to sell out now
Tori Amos ~ Crucify
Dx: Schizoaffective Disorder
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