but if i had the tickets for the plane, and i have the childcare arranged, and it doesnt bother me about the marital affair....
i wonder what stops me from wanting this wholeheartedly.....
my fat... i might have put on 5 pounds since he saw me, and my body.. i hate it...
and would it ruin me mentally?
part of me thinks this would be very productive to have one last crack at it and just revisit it once more and then let it go......
so torn.
i appreciate your guys honest opinions, but please no harsh remarks about homewrecking... cuz that is NOT the real issue here.