My poor little fss worker is gonna say "it's too hot for me to do my job" today. Like she did last week, and the three weeks before that. I get we're setting records all the damn time, but her vehicle is newer and I'm assuming has A/C and it's not that far to walk from the building to her vehicle and from her vehicle to my building. I don't even want to pick up my meds this week. Another f**king fight with the pharmacy and my team over what meds to take. I listened to them for one day last week and stayed in bed until 3pm (I *never* do that) and when I got up I fell just from being so dizzy.

Then come winter she's gonna say "It's too cold for me to come out." As if my mental illness took a break when the weather got uncomfortable.... I'm just not gonna pick up my meds. My fss worker doesn't want to drive? Neither do I. If they want to make it hard for me, I'm not gonna jump through hoops. I'm giving up on injections too. Invega sucks, Risperdal sucks, Haldol sucks. I'm reluctant to try Abilify without taking the pill first. I took it a loooong time ago for like a week while IP but they decided that it wasn't working and switched me to something else instead of increasing the dose beyond 2mg.

I'm really feeling the need to have a drink which will either calm me down or make me suicidal. Kinda like meds!!!!