I am just thinking too, I don't think that his teasing is malicious - as much as it hurts and I hate it. I think it's a weird way of...trying to be close maybe. I will have to ask him. Last weekend, he made a vulgar sex joke about me - but it was like, him being horny. But it was completely not okay with me. It made me feel bad. I'm sick of feeling bad.


And yeah I was wondering if I should give this a timeline - like if it hasn't stopped after such and such time, and after being clear and communicative, maybe take a break. I'm also wondering if eventually I should tell him this.


I also need to say that there's a lot of good about him too. He went with me to get bloodwork last weekend. He is also very sweet.


We are both telling each other we love each other now. And I do. But I would like to find ways to disengage from my feelings about this **** when we aren't together. It just ruminates around and around in my head.

I think I also want to say that when I am with him, I'm usually happy. Weekends are pretty great. I know that sounds contradictory.