I don't generally complain, but I'm hitting bottom. My shrink added Vraylar & Trintellex to my meds, but they don't seem to be doing any good. I made an appointment with my therapist for the first time in months, but I think I've just about exhausted anything I can derive from therapy. You can only do it for so many years before it gets repetitive. My girlfriend is having knee replacement surgery on the 22nd, so I feel pressure to be on top of my game. Not sure that's going to happen, though. I feel stupid complaining since I know what folks like Jennifer, Aurelius, Beth, Soupe, Boots & others are going through. @Nammu, I hope you get some sleep soon, too.

I have fleeting thoughts of sui, but they're just thoughts. My sister was diagnosed with cancer in February, so I know what worry/tragedy can do to a family. I don't really want to be here, but I wouldn't put those I love through my BS.