Ugh I was so restless I couldn’t sleep last night. I took extra seroquel and that meant I have been dragging all day. I went online for group bc I had a physical scheduled at 11am but I fell asleep at 10ish online and then again after my appt at 1:15ish. I have to go in person tomorrow but still need to leave at 12 to get my son to his follow up tonsil removal appointment. And I have to leave at 12:30 to get my TB test read.

I mean I really didn’t expect to still be there in the middle of august so I had all these appointments set up from a few weeks ago. So my clinician is just going to have to deal with it. I need to be out by sept 1, that’s when I start my new job. So I’m going to talk to her the next time I see her. I don’t want to sign out AMA but if she won’t let me go I’ll have to. I think she will though, I’m much improved.

I hate the haldol side effects though. I can’t take too much cogentin, it blurs my vision if I do. But it was the restless that got me last night. My recommended dose is 1.5mg but that’s too much. So I got through last night by taking 1mg as a compromise.

I would really rather be on something else like abilify or something but I don’t know if it would work and I’m not gonna go around changing meds so close to the beginning of the school year. Especially after that traumatic episode. I am not sure if I’ve taken abilify before. I know latuda made things way worse and I thought my original dr had prescribed abilify first which also messed things up. But I also wasn’t on any other mood stabilizer and I was on an SSRI. The SSRIs are terrible, they all makes me manic that slides into mixed. So it’s worth a try again. But I’m going to wait until I see my regular pdoc. She’s more reasonable than the program dr.