i was just thinking how this cbt thing i'm doing seems like it's going to be helpful and already has been in one situation. i hope there's more actual helpful stuff to come. at the moment though, not having had very much sleep again, my brain is full of anxious thoughts and i'm trying the 3 c's thing but getting stuck at the 'catching'. i notice them but before i can move to the next step they take ahold of me and i start the mile-a-minute catastrophizing. I'd stopped it when I said f-it and got out of bed at 3:30am and took a shower, got dressed, bla bla bla but now it's back. It's almost like even though I like the action-oriented, time-limited-ness of this program, ever since the call with my coach the other day I miss talking with you again. Meh.