Wasn’t really sure where to post this, I just need to get it out of my head somewhere

Today I attended my grandmothers funeral. I don’t see any of my family often because they treated me pretty poorly growing up. So seeing everyone was challenging as expected. My mother was neglectful and I’ve recently started processing that so I am not a great fan of being anywhere near her.

But today, seeing her sobbing at her mothers funeral made me well up which is not something that ever happens in public. Not only that, but I hugged her as I was leaving and for the first time ever, she actually hugged back.

I don’t know what I’m thinking about this at the moment, it’s going to take a lot of processing I think. I guess it just shows that I’m still a human and capable of feeling empathy or whatever. It’s just, thrown me a bit.