Yes, I understand. You are trying to focus on something more positive than these past experiences. This is very good because people who have self-esteem issues, we tend to see only the bad that happens to us. At least, this is what happens to me. So I missed the chance to enjoy the positive things.

I’m happy you are feeling more in piece with yourself.

It’s not so easy to have true friends, and much less for us (I mean with all these social anxiety). My suggestion is not looking for friends, go ahead with acquaintances because you never know which surprise is waiting for you turn around the corner. What it may seems an acquaintances at first, with time, situations, connections may end up in a good friendship.

I don’t even know why in the Earth I’m telling you that if you know as much if not more about interactions because indeed you work face to face with the public.

Only want to support you a little.