Big safe hugs to you, jinnyann. I have been exactly where you are so I have much empathy and compassion for you.

It hurts so much when we're healing. But that's what you are in the middle of.

These feelings and fears will never go away completely, sometimes rising up out of nowhere, but they won't stay as long or carry such a knock out punch. The "living colors" of the past will lessen in their intensity and start to fade.

Buckle up. It's a bumpy ride to the finish line.