My time management is terrible

But better than before (I do 10x more in one day that I did in one month, years ago).

I just have to be patient, humble. I should meditate... I do a lot of open-awareness meditation... I just wish that, if I want to DO something, that I actually DO IT.

And a sense of unhappiness comes.. I'm grateful for all I have - I'm just too aware of the wider scope of things. And I hate being this way. I'm still young (+ a large time gap of sleeping, dealing with mental health and hedonia).

But I will try... And even for everyone, nothing is going to last.. NOTHING. We all die.. So the moment has to be enjoyed, to be mindful of. I still just can't wrap my head around it.

Everything will be taken away, ripped away, and sucked into a black hole. With acceptance, we find peace .. And all of the stuff I read about psychology/life, people make blogs and such - It's just a lot to make sense of. A lot, to organize in my mind.