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Originally Posted by cogladaid
More lately I stop and feel sorry for myself.
I have questionable mental health. I struggle. I can’t have gluten. I can’t have alcohol. I can’t have weed. I can’t have a lot of fatty foods lately. I had that lymphoma scare this year. My thyroid hates me. My liver hates me. I keep hurting my ankle so my ankle hates me. I need really to lose weight.There’s a pandemic still. I have no motivation to do things I once loved.
I know some people have it worse. But this isn’t the miserable Olympics who has it worst. I just feel bad about myself and need to vent.
I wish I could just have a nice cocktail and fries right now and relax but I can’t even do that.
I also feel like falling into my eating disorder again.
I hate it.
I’m trying to think positive. I’m having good stuff tomorrow. It’ll be good. I’ll make good. Do good. Hopefully I can start my day out bright. Maybe exercise.
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You have the right mindset - I am to be positive too..
It's like being an athlete and then discovering you have a heart condition. Like.. I've heard of someone wanting to do cocaine again after installing a pacemaker..
Self control, self love/compassion - You've been struggling a lot and I hope it gets better.
Hypomania.. It's fun - But suffering, maintaining a good recovery/down time is difficult - But very worth it.
You have a good focus/autism/math-science mind and treading through the boring stuff is hard when there's no fun time.. But it'll get better - Eventually, you can do all of the good dopamine things, wait a bit.. And we'll all be very be happy when that time arrives for you..