Dear T,
Even though I hate that you went away, I think more than that I’m glad you’re refreshed. You seem to have something you didn’t before you left. Idk. I am glad for it.
Restating some of the things you did make me feel safer. I like that you feel further away now as I need the structure more than ever. Also you feel closer as you’re so straight up expressive of your feelings. Maybe, I can go away and stay with you perhaps instead of running away like a part of me wants to do.. Still feel shaky and a bit lost.