Sorry you're struggling cogladaid, it's hard to manage losing weight when you have an eating disorder history. I'm trying to do the same thing right now. Hard to balance healthy eating without taking things too far and getting obsessed. I also need to lose some weight, I've steadily gained over the past year or so. I eat because it makes me happy too, helps temporarily relieve anxiety, and the antipsychotics etc make it worse due to increasing your appetite

It's good you cut out alcohol though, I used to drink soda, and quite a bit of it(I know it's different, but still a lot of calories too) and when I cut that out many years ago, over time I lost a lot of weight in a healthy way. It takes some time to see progress though physically. Cutting out liquid calories can really make a big difference