(also responding to Beth & downandlonely)
No. I'm a goner. Never gonna see the summit of mt. katahdin. I even tried convincing myself I was being paranoid but I just can't shake the soundness of the logic behind what's going to happen tomorrow.

Addicts shouldn't have children. I thought about calling a crisis line but what are they going to do? 100% chance I'll be dead in a week or so no matter what I do so I'm just hiding with a knife and some pepper spray but that won't do anything against a man with a lot of guns.