This restlessness from the haldol is killing me. I did better just taking 1mg at night than splitting the dose AM/PM. I think I’ll try that. I never did cut down to 3mg haldol but I have to, I really hope It will help. I could not sit still in group no matter what I did. Kept moving my legs and feet. I tried to switch the tension release to my hands by playing with a fidget, but no dice.

I went to the gym on a treadmill for half an hour to calm down. I do feel calmer now. I don’t see how I can stay on this but I can’t switch so close to the start of my new job, I am too afraid to rock the boat.

Speaking of which I shared too much with my physician and now he put on my physical form that I need a separate not from the program dr as well. It would be fine except it’s difficult getting her to do anything in a timely manner. My disability papers weren’t ready for like 3-4 weeks. Im going to get on her *** and then on my clinicians *** because I’m really trying not to have this job taken from me before I even get to start.

Much love and hugs to those that need a little extra today