I’ve not posted in a few days because I’ve been withdrawing from everybody and everything. I noticed all the red flags of depression but didn’t feel depressed. It finally hit. I’ve been numb and haven’t cared about anything in about 2 weeks now. Things are falling apart around me and I don’t feel capable of doing anything about it. I’m really scared right now. Trying to be positive and turn it around but I feel totally out of control. It hasn’t been this bad even when brother passed. I don’t know what to do. Totally lost. Please send good thoughts, healing vibes and prayers if you’re so inclined. Thank you.