the first of your thread is almost word for word of what i said to my T when i started... people get pieces but never the whole of me.

i decided i really wanted to change. And it is that committment which keeps me going... and it is the going that builds the trust.

feeling like you have told things before you are ready is an awful feeling.. i know it too well. But if it happens.. tell the T that is how you feel maybe. Yes, i would tell a T at the beginning just what you said here.

one thing i have found that helps is i am very upfront with T about whatever it is i am feeling... even if i cant talk about something, i tell him how i feel about talking or not talking

write things out.. then decide to give them or not.. talk here, we have all been there