I haven't seen transference T on my trip. She must not be here this week. Not that I was on guard for her. Mainly I was just enjoying my day.

I do think the reason I still think of her is transition related. She was the last person I felt attracted to before my sex drive died and I can't fill that void. That emptiness. I don't binge eat or drink or do any other reckless thing so focuing on the last person I was attracted to is how I deal with this.