((((((((((((freewill))))))))))))))

You know I deeply care about you, right?

I want to see you continue posting... your posting isn't negatively impacting other peoples posting, as far as I can see.

I'm sorry your friend isn't trying to help you... she's probably scared, or maybe caught up in her own problems so she can't help anyone else. It doesn't mean that you're not worthwhile, and it doesn't mean you don't deserve help - because you do.

Is there *anyone* else that you know that might be willing to help you at this point? To do all the things you've mentioned?

I haven't heard any complaints about you triggering anyone my friend... if you're ever worried about it - you can always put "trigger" in your subject title... but unless it really is triggering, you shouldn't need to use the trigger icon.

This forum is for everyone, with whatever struggles they're having with food and diet... you shouldn't feel you can't post here. I hope you continue to do so!