I am SO afraid I’ve wrecked my back again. My right side is killing me in the AM. Nerve pain. Like I slipped another disk, or probably the same disk I had surgery on. They repaired it, but my Dr said I would likely need spinal fusion surgery in the future. He said ten years though! It’s only been three since my first surgery. Spinal fusion is serious stuff. I’ll be basically disabled for a week or two and then spend 12 weeks in recovery. I don’t want that to happen with my new job. I don’t want to go in and then have to go straight on disability for three months!

I should be on RS’s insurance soon though. So I can go back to the dr and maybe get another cortisone shot in my nerve. That basically solved the problem in my left side for now.

I think walking will help and if I lose the weight I’ve gained then I might be more comfortable. That will involve eating better. My first priority is to stop bingeing. I’ve been on the right track for a couple of days so far. Just gotta not give up even if I slip a day.

My other issue is sleep. I’ve been taking 75mg of seroquel because I couldn’t sleep on 50mg but it is SO HARD to wake up and even stay awake. Fell asleep in the last group for like half an hour. There’s only two weeks til school starts. I gotta work something out.