Thank you all again for the advice and help. It is all very much appreciated. This is my first divorce and I am doing everything I can to get through it. I've started going back to the gym, biking, hiking, counseling, journaling, talking/hanging out with so many friends. All I can do now is keep working on myself and in time I will eventually feel better.

I still feel stuck since she is still living there but she should be out soon. I am worried about moving back into the house. I don't know how I am going to handle it. I've never lived alone. I have a lot of decisions to make for my future as well once I move back in. Do I keep the house? Move someone in? Go back to school and finish my degree? So many things I need to decide but I'm trying not to stress to much and take it one day at a time but it is so difficult. I'm still haunted by all of the memories of her. I'm worried about how I am going to handle Christmas time. I ended up booking a vacation to get away for Christmas this year in hopes that the change in routine and scenery will do me some good and not make it so difficult. I truly feel like I am making progress but it is slow and everyday is a new challenge. I never know what the day is going to be like with my mood swings and my emotions going from sadness/loneliness to frustration/anger. First I'm thinking about how much I miss her and regret losing my temper in front of her and scaring her. The next moment I'm thinking of all of the resentment I've been feeling towards her and I am glad I got angry and glad she seen how much she is hurting me. It is so difficult to control my emotions and remove the bad thoughts from my head.