I last saw her through telehealth on Febuarary 23rd 2021. Its been really tough. I am on my 4th therapist since then. All 3 either were odd or bailed out on me. I'm finally getting settled with my new one and she has expierence with eating disorders which is mainly why my transference T didn't want to work with me.

Its just, I'm still attracted to her. I still have feelings for her. I think the issue is that she was the last person I felt any attraction to before my biweekly injections were moved to weekly. Then things calmed down and I haven't liked anyone since. Especially after my hystrectomy things majorly calmed down hormone wise, but I want to like someone. My mom said I looked really sad and I lied and said I was tired but I just miss feeling attracted to people. But I feel amazing having the outside of me match the inside. I finally feel like me. I don't regret doing anything

I know this can sometimes happen to trans people and they may turn to binge eating or some other type of unhealthy coping skill, but with me I just am very focused on the last person I was attracted to. Which happened to be my transference T.

I don't know how to get past this. I tried discussing it with my last therapist and she freaked out and thought I was going to have transference with her too so she put up all these strong boundaries and now I'm scared to discuss it with my current therapist because she doesn't act like the last 3 therapists I had. She's different then them and I don't want that to change.

Sorry this post is so long. Does anyone have any suggestions? On how to move past this, or how to discuss it in therapy without my therapist thinking I'm attracted to her as well?