I know it's scary to fear how a therapist might take something especially if you fear they'll take it personally. I still suggest trying to talk to your therapist about it. Slowly if need be. If your therapist is any good, she'll be accepting of you even if you develop an attraction to her later on.

With L, I have talked about my sexual fantasies involving her and I'm not even attracted to her! I'm heterosexual. We also talked about how I'm jealous of her H for getting to marry her and that I can't. Then there's my secret and my past sexual history. She has never judged me or rejected me for any of it.

However, with ex-T, she would have rejected me probably for any or all of it. I still think my secret is what pushed her over the edge. But I'll never know.

It sucks losing a T, but you deserve someone who will accept you as a whole.