I do feel like I've made a lot of progress. My counselor said the same thing. I still feel terrible inside though. I am still struggling to let her go. I had an outburst of anger the other day and it is tearing me up inside that I acted that way in front of her. Since then I don't know how she feels about me and I'm trying my best to tell myself it doesn't matter what she thinks of me anymore.. I have been trying to go no contact but it is so hard to do especially with her still living there. We have 2 dogs and they are both going with her and I'm going to miss them. She said I could still see them if I wanted after all of this but that was before I got angry. I text her and asked if she was still going to let me see them but she won't respond. There is a part of me that says it doesn't matter if she will let you see them. Part of me doesn't want to keep that connection while another part of me says to let all of it go and cut all ties with her. She said she wanted to be friends one day but again that was before my outburst. I'm struggling to let go and not care what she or her family thinks of me now after my outburst. I feel terrible for how I acted but I also feel glad I let it all out. It felt good to let it out and it has helped me with not contacting her. Im trying so hard to tell myself what she thinks of me doesn't matter and if she decides not to let me see the dogs it doesn't matter and if she doesn't want to be friends with me anymore in the future it also doesn't matter but trying to convince myself if this is not easy. I don't know how to feel in this situation. I'm mad at myself for even texting her about the dogs because now I'm anxious about her response that I'm not receiving.