Ok. First of all, we obviously have the same T.

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I don't know. I feel confused. I thought I would feel *really* good after our Uno game, but suddenly I feel on the verge of a panic attack.

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This reminds me SO MUCH of last week's session with T. He suddenly decided to pour out all of this emotinal disclosure fo rme. It was all about how he cares about me, wants to care for me sometimes, and enjoys me just being there in session so that he can engage with me. It was definitely a "whoa" moment, one that was feeling really good, but before long, I was totally overwhelmed and had pretty much dissociated.

I think there are so many factors as to why we feel this panic after moments of intimacy. Like you, I have boundary issues. To me, a relationship with a man=sex. I freak out when T declares his intimacy towards me because I never understood that you can actually achieve inimacy without sex. Secondly, we are are simply not used to something caring and loving us just because we are us. We show them all these different parts of us (some of the horrid) and there they are, holding our hands, reciprocating the connection, etc.

Your post actually scared me a little, lol-- I just couldn't believe how much it mirrored my sessions-- the casual nature, the bantering, the laughing... and then going back to therapist/patient. We have never played cards though. I would probably be too inclined to game. lol