Intense dream woke me up before the sun. I had an appointment with my pdoc only it was my PCP who was acting as a pdoc. I ran though the sprinklers on my way to the appointment and was sitting there dripping denying that I was manic, just spontaneous! He told me I couldn’t work anymore that I was a danger to others. I got very upset saying that SSDI isn’t enough I need my job, it’s just an entry level job. So he relented and said if I took time off I could keep it. Then he had me sign papers to that effect but I couldn’t stop signing my name. I sat there denying I was manic and wanted to know why my denials weren’t working cause they work for T**** and he’s worse than manic he’s a criminal. Why won’t you listen?

Then I woke after 4 hours of sleep, too rev’d up to go back to sleep. Man, it bought back memories of being locked up!