Dear T,
So something interesting is that I'm just feeling anger at you and hurt by you--I'm not turning this back on myself and feeling self-loathing--it's all outward. (Well, maybe I do kinda regret sending the email now, but that's different.) Which I feel is progress. But I'm not sure I'd want to tell you that because then you might think it's *good* that you upset me, and I don't want to give you that satisfaction!
LT