foreverlost... that fear.. about T not wanting to see you... that is what happens when you are making progress - no lie. Your walls shoot up and fear creeps in... you start having these sort of thoughts about T's motives, or fears that he doesnt want you around... it's like the cartoons with the angel and devil on each shoulder... the little devil telling you T is out to get you somehow, or leave you. But it's that little devil that you are trying to fight in the first place. It never ceases to amaze me how that damned little thing can convince me of just about anything. i mean... why would my T (or yours) do this for a living, accept me as a client... just to tell me to get lost once i opened up?

weird huh?