earthmama, I think you nailed it. Even though the things I am going through in therapy are positive, they are a big shift for me. Thanks so much for making the connection for me. I had not put that together. Wow, it feels good that you care enough to help me figure these things out. Maybe I will do something extremely uncharacteristic of me and allow myself to feel good about your interest and concern. Thanks so much!!!! You have really made my day.