I'm sorry you are so depressed. i can relate to not being happy in my body. But, don't take this wrong... I'm old.... it's the way it is and there's not much i can change. I used to weigh a lot and now have no choice but to put up with skin that doesn't look good. i'm not minimizing how you feel, i get it. When i was your age i didn't like myself then either, but now i look back and think 'what on earth was i so critical about myself for, i thought i was fat and ugly and now i see i wasn't. Body is one thing, personality is another and that is more important i think.... and you are young, i hope you learn to accept yourself as you are. many people will see beauty in you that you cant see in yourself. Depression makes all of those thoughts worse. i wish you the best, and i also apologize if my words are not helpful.