I was at the courthouse today with my lawyer and my mom. The judge called me up and my mind just went blank with anxiety and I was like a deer in headlights. I remember answering her questions and I was halfway looking at her and halfway looking at my lawyer. I wasn't sure who to look at. She luckily didn't care and it was all over in less then 5 minutes. I was just a stumbling mess but no one gave me a hard time. There was one other guy in there. Another trans man I assume, about my age, but he didn't have a lawyer so I got called up first and then we hurried out and I had quite a bit of sensory overload afterwards so I took my meds when I got home and I feel much better now.