Dear T,
Trying to put this out of my head and focus on vacation and being present for my family. I did talk about today's session a bit to H. I feel I'm in this place of "I'm fine," then will have a total meltdown at some point, hopefully while I'm by myself. I just miss the T that you were for like maybe 2 years there--could he maybe come back? I think I need to feel caring from you in the sense of seeing it in your eyes, and I wasn't getting that today (or the past couple weeks). But I imagine it's pointless to say that to you.

If you can never be that T again, or it comes out only rarely, maybe I need someone else. I don't know.

What I do know is that whatever I'm feeling on vacation this week, I'm not emailing you. Or asking if I can possibly have Thursday's session back. I need distance right now.
Love,
LT