I started volunteering the other day, first day was Monday. It's not really a position, you can sign up for a shift to volunteer any time. I signed up to do it 3 days this week and some days next week
Mondays shift was easy. Todays was hard. I was cutting tomatoes and filling salad dressing containers. I was about to serve people lunch on the main line and then they switched me over to the salad bar, that threw me off and I got extremely nervous, panicky, and almost cried but I didn't, I kept myself from crying, it was hard because the tears were right there waiting to come out. But I pushed through it. I was very shaky when serving the first couple of people their salads but it got better after that and the rest of the shift went really well. I don't deal well with stress or feeling pressure obviously. But I am going back again on Friday.
I felt the urge to flee as soon as I felt like I was about to cry but I managed to stay, so I'm proud of myself for that
I know it may seem stupid but I don't do well with feeling pressure or stress and I also have severe social anxiety
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“All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi
Diagnosis:
Schizoaffective disorder Bipolar type
PTSD
Social Anxiety Disorder
Anorexia Binge/Purge type
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