I kinda hope they drug test me today at my appointment. To prove how absolutely fked I am. I need a little help beyond 50mg of Lamictal (which I threw up today) and "do a self-care day."

I am in boatloads of pain right now. Withdrawing from like four things right now (including Invega).

My head keeps repeating "11, 42, to the universe I say adieu"