I am sure you still have goals and dreams even if you don't realize it all the time. They might not be the same than those of your therapist's or the ones you had earlier. But you still are you, you have your own precious life and you are able to change it. You married your abuser you said. That sounds worrying, are you now ok or still in an abusive relationship? If latter, also that can cause depressive thoughts about the future. You are still young, right? If not an architect, maybe some other studies and career?