Don't analyze yourself. Do you have to get a referral from your primary care doctor to get help? My PCP isn't generally helpful when it comes to mental health.

Write down your history along with all your diagnosis, medication you've tried and your reactions to it. Be honest when writing it down when which symptoms started and what you are dealing with now. The things that stress you out the most or affect your relationships the most. It may not be as bad as you think. You're well enough to know you need help and to get it. Best of luck.