I really don't know where to talk about this. I signed up for the website at the top called Better Help but I got paranoid that I would be hacked because a lot of people know me. And I have already been doxed. I'm sure they would try to if they knew I was on that site. I used a fake email and a fake name for this site. My ex bf said there was no point in using Tor but he said if I changed my name and used a different email address I would be good.

I might get a therapist in person but I'm not at the city that I was at because I had to get out. I'm not really sure how to move past this. I didn't think this would happen to a girl in 2022. It's like wow and now I am just trying to fix my life and finish my degree at my school or elsewhere.

I also want to be a urologist maybe I have OCD I don't know that's just my interest area where I read when I'm bored. And I think I would be good at it but if this got out then it would be like yeah you're not fit to do that job.

I have had no sexual urges because I am so ashamed. I have no libido. None. For weeks. I'm disgusted with myself and ashamed of my urges.