okay..rem..thing is, yeah, it is self destructive. that was the point. just testing to see how much of something would do what. and apparently, it just knocks me out for a few hours. it's not like i'm doing anything illegal. haven't found anything in otc meds that are addictive. anyways..just a weak attempt at something that will never happen for me..just yet.

and bama, i don't know what to say to you. i don't see myself as a drug addict or an alcoholic, well not anymore. if anything, i binge drink. that's all. gah..nvm. like i said, i don't know what to say to you. so i'm done now..silly me. feeling sick anyways.