I was restrained in the ER before being admitted to the psychiatric ward. I wasn't in my right mind at all. I just remember believing that I was trapped and needed to escape. I checked to see if the coast was clear but right at that moment the psychiatrist came in the room. He accused me of faking my PTSD. He said something about having just caught me in my act, whatever that meant. Idk. But after he left I spiraled. I already hated myself and had a history of self harm. I felt worthless after he said that to me. I wasn't faking my disorder. I was eventually restrained by security guards for self harm. I was terrified. They came into the room in a group and picked me up off the floor and carried me back to my bed.