star, please don't think I'm trying to 'jump' on you, but something you posted stuck out to me loud and clear... Are you 21 years of age or older? If not, you posted, "It's not like I'm doing anything illegal." Well, if you're not 21 or older, then yes, the drinking is illegal. If you were to walk out in public and a cop seen you and thought you may be intoxicated, not only would you go to jail for PI, but you'd also go for drinking while still a minor. Also, half a box of Benadryl would be considered illegal. You weren't taking them for a cold or cough or anything, and you took WAY over the legal consumption, so that makes it illegal...

I'm not saying you are an addict. That's up to you whenever you are ready to admit to yourself whether the addiction is there or not. I'm simply saying as active drug addicts, we make excuses for our drinking and/or using so that in our own mind, it will be ok. In my journal, I wrote a lot of things in there during my active addiction that now I look at and realize I was making myself believe drinking and using was ok, so I didn't have to stop. I lied and munipulated myself more than I could even imagine doing to the others around me, and I did that a lot to them.

They say for addicts, it's the first drink that gets us drunk... Why? Because we can't stop at just one drink. We have to go until we get good and drunk. Doesn't matter if you do it daily or just once or twice a week, if you can't control the drinking while doing it, there's a problem.