I do believe so much in the relation between "What we think"-- "How we feel" -- "How we act" and the other way around. CBT works well with me (I have tried other approaches and they have helped me partly - so I'm not saying that CBT is the only one for every one). After being almost isolated for the two years with covid, then moving and at last being sick with covid, I feel that I am being used to not succeed. I have heard that there is something called "learned helplessness". It is a long time since I have felt hypomanic like feelings, thanks be to God. But the depression sits on me like a heavy rucksack, as if it was placed on me to never leave after all these negative happenings the last 2 1/2 years. I have stopped therapy, cannot afford it and it stopped being helpful. The therapist didn't use CBT. I have tried to use that on myself, but it is hard when not having someone to work with. Today I have found an app against procrastination. It will ask me several times a day if I am procrastinating. If I answer yes, I will have to tell why. I will be able to measure my progress toward no-procrastination because of tiredness. After downloading the app, I feel hope. My breath is more open and regular. I hope to learn from this app and I have stored the address for another app that will help me to reach my goals. The last one is not for free, but if the anti-procrastination app can teach me to be more aware about when "my head is hanging of boredom or habit", I will continue with the other one for 80 - 90 $ a month. Life here I am coming ready to fight for my existence ...

A good day to all!