I just got back from the DMV. It wasn't awful. 40 minute ride there, 15 minutes in the building, and then the ride back. First thing in the AM appointments are great.

Actually slept pretty good last night. First time since May I slept more than 3 hours straight without substances. Hopefully that means today will be a better day. Picking up my meds, already called the pharmacy, and they'll be ready later today. Tomorrow I go up to 100mg of lamotrigine. I'm still nervous about meeting my new pdoc. The last pdoc I had there yelled at me for bouncing my leg (I had to tell her where exactly to go). If new pdoc is a douche about taking me off a med I'm allergic to, I will go to the ER and tell them 1) I'm suicidal 2) I ran into traffic because a voice told me to and it sounded like a good idea at the time 3) I'm seeing shyt 4) It feels like bugs are crawling under my skin and 5) I'm on an ineffective antipsychotic and allergic to it. None of that is a lie.

Edit: I like how quiet my mind is right now.