I just came back from therapy. She agreed with my mom that I looked too thin. And then chewed me out about how many calories I've been eating and how many calories I should be eating. I told her I honestly don't know what happened because I haven't lost any weight recently. My weight redistribution just blew up all of a sudden or something. She said I should be eating about 2,050 calories a day. I said my meds make me not hungry and its hard to get calories in but the meds work so well for my anxiety. We talked about my pdoc appointment tommorow and she said its good that my mom will be with me. Kinda makes me wonder if he's going to have an issue as well with the way I look. We also talked about my possible egg and nut allegries and she is wondering if it happened because of the change in hormones and my surgery. I was kinda wondering the same thing. She said "I wonder if it will keep getting worse to the point you'll need an epipen and will need to read food labels." I told my mom that and my mom said she's jumping the gun a bit. Anyways after therapy I went to the store and got some plant based eggs since I do legit like eggs and they were one of my staples for a long time. I also went to Walgreens to get the type of melatonin I had been using before I ran out. I used a different kind last night and got 15 minutes of sleep after 10:45 so I am frigging exhausted and acting like a zombie today.

The plant based eggs were disgusting. But they didn't make me sick the way real eggs do. According to what I've eaten today and what my therapist says I need to eat, I need to eat a thousand more calories. Yeah not happening. I am just not hungry today. I got my weekly shot last night so I won't be hungry today. Tommorow I'll probably be hungry. Hopfully I'll be able to eat a legit amount before my pdoc appointment because he does have powers that my T doesn't and I don't want to to go IP because of him.