So there's a teacher that has problems with me my health and computing likes being harder on me then everyone. I noticed lots of people handing there assignments in early but she doesn't complain. I upload all my assignments all at once she makes it a thing to name me in class and complain that I sent all my assignments in at that irritated her or something. So I've been feeling very stressed etc worried I won't pass the course because of someone who doesn't like me and is unfair to me. People don't understand why I'm so upset about it but like every Tafe I've been too has kicked me off for like having mental health issues. I just feel like I'm being victimised again and when I feel victimised I start to get angry and depressed and ruminate. My sister told me off because I keep on going on about this teacher apparently its been like 5 days and I can't cope because I'm angry and just over it people being disrespectful and rude. It's just they say they won't discriminate with people who have mental illness etc and then they remove me out of courses 4 times. Yeah the last course I passed nobody was gonna remove me but people should understand why I feel this way. It's just I don't know what I can do about this level of anxiety I find it hard to sleep. I keep thinking about all the things I want. I don't feel any closer to being respected or being appreciated. I'm always treated like my existence it's bothersome to others it was the same growing up. My mother blamed me and Daniela for being in an abusive relationship with dad because she couldn't leave him she had two children. It just induces a deep sadness in me that nobody really thinks I have value or want to help me etc. I'm just thinking I'm really over it and I definitely won't go back to that Tafe next year. I really want this certificate so I can work and not have to study anymore. All of this stress just makes me think it's not worth it. I don't want to go back to study. I think that being close to people is a waste of time because I'm just a burden that just takes up people's time. I'm scared I don't know what to do with my life. I'm just sad and have been for a few days now obsessing about the whole situation.