I don't know how to stop anymore.
I feel like I don't even need to stop.
I'm doing it more often than ever, and i've taken so many different anti-depressents I don't know what will help anymore.

All that seems to matter now is Blood & Alcohol.
I 'm so sad and upset all the time, I won't even get out of bed to go to school! As a result I'm now failing out of 9th grade.

I'm so lost, and confused. Everything hurts and I just don't even want to live anymore...

but this is just me ranting again.