I went for a follow up with the doctor per his request Friday and I do have three deficiencies and three infections including one in my lungs. I felt chided for being sick and had to defend myself that I am eating well and resting (excessively here lately). I may like my alfredo pizza on occasion but I start each morning with a healthy smoothie chock full of nutrients and go on from there. I don’t know how I came to be in such poor condition aside from possibly years of stress and more recently grief. I think me feeling so poorly physically had a lot to do with me being so down the other night. I feel like **** right now. Not well enough to see M this weekend unfortunately even though she is in town. Not even close. I hate that. Ah well….another time.

Mom misplaced her car keys and I’ve searched as best I could considering. I don’t know how to resolve that for now until I’m feeling better. There’s a few things I need to get resolved soon. I MUST get back on my feet. At least we’ve had somebody come in to clean today. I’m locked in the den as I’m not up for socializing.

One thing I know….I WILL get back on my feet and be better and stronger for it. Never again. Thanks for listening. It’s helped me feel better.

I hope everyone has a peaceful day. Much love